Good hyunging 101

[kangawoo]

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to Namjoon

[yourhope]

I met ten

cute boy

smells of weed

expensive clothes

sweet boy

recently got mistaken for a whore by cheon and almost treated as such

[monie]

I bet that was awkward.

Sounds a lot like a teenage boy.

Where did you find him in the end?

And sweet how?

[yourhope]

came to my club

he is sweet, but kinky

anyway, he is sweetly in love with minjun

loyal to him, they are equal, don't have secrets from each other, all of that

he is also very attached to the little baek brothers

[monie]

That's all good to know.

I did some background checks on the boy myself. Chittaphon Leechaiyapornkul. Very interesting. Did you know his cousin is marrying someone who I am like 90% sure is a fake alias for a royal?

This is very Crazy Rich Asian, you know? But like... crazy.

In Thailand and the US, this kid is connected. He's RICH-rich.

[yourhope]

apparently estranged from the family though

he told me they are traditional, so my guess is they had a problem with minjun

not that money will be an issue either way

though, ten? head to toe designer clothes

good taste too

[monie]

His parents seem to be under the impression he's studying law at a university but I checked, he's not enrolled. He's not even old enough! He must be an amazing liar.

Some kids have a gift of bullshitting.

So he and Cheon ain't getting on, huh? Bet Minjun isn't thrilled.

[yourhope]

Nope, they both definitely want to be rid of Cheon. Not surprising. But they do apparently think that they are getting through to Kangwoo. Ten described him as 'just a nerd'.

I told him that the Min Clan wants to get rid of Cheon too.

[monie]

apparently Kangwoo is a Star Wars fan, this we've learned recently. Weird way to describe Kangwoo though.

We'll get rid of Cheon.

And we will find Jimin, promise. I know it seems like we're not trying but it's delicate. We can only do so much.

[yourhope]

To be fair, Ten is still a teenager. I don't even want to know how he'd describe me.

Because Jimin is just a whore and not officially affiliated with us and I am not much of anything either. I know.

[monie]

Oh yeah, I bet he thinks we're all old, cranky guys and we're not that old so... you know.

It's hard to do much in those circumstances. I'm really sorry. We want to but we can't. These things have a code. Yoongi hates that he can't help you.

Because you are our friend, Hobi. That matters, okay?

[yourhope]

I know that. It just sucks.

You get tired of it, don't you? Having a boyfriend that can barely even smile at you in public? Yoongi stopped acting like my friend the day he took over. I know why. He told me it would be like that. It still sucks.

And I miss Jimin.

[monie]

I hate it too but i love him so I deal, I guess. It's harsh and it's annoying but this is the shitty world we're in.

Where I can't just help my friend get his boyfriend back.

Did he ever... send anything else? Do you know if he's alive?

[yourhope]

Last I heard, he was alive. I know all the places he isn't, so my guess is that with the old Baek dying, Cheon's gotten so busy that he's kinda...

forgotten? Not quite, but it's in the backburner. I hope. I don't want to remind him.

And sorry for calling you out. I'm just frustrated. I know it's not on you or Yoongi and I know you two get a shit deal too.

[monie]

It's fine, I don't blame you. Your boyfriend is suffering somewhere and we can't help you because of dumb politics. And I want it to be different but what can I do?

I learned the hard way I can't win. You get used to it. Sad but true.

We'll defeat Cheon soon. Then you'll get him back.

[yourhope]

Yeah.

I guess it's like when Yoongi's father had you.

What was that like?

[monie]

I

It was

It hurt a lot. I thought I was going to die. I still dream of it so it's

Yeah, it doesn't really go away but

Sometimes life sucks, man.

[yourhope]

Sorry, I keep trampling all over your feelings today... You are home at least, yeah? Get cuddles.

Anyway. Just. You knew that he'd come and save you, right? You believed that?

[monie]

Nah, it's fine. Trample away. I get it.

Uh... no. Actually. No, I didn't. I thought maybe he'd try but I was in a headspace where it was hard to keep the faith, you know?

And I was there a week so it was seven days. And on the third, he told me he'd already killed Yoongi so...

I was basically just being tortured to death as far as I could see.

[yourhope]

I never knew. I'm sorry, that's so awful. No wonder you can't get over it.

I wonder how Yoongi felt. I mean. I guess I was there, but that was when he closed off. But now I know a bit how it must have been.

Only Jimin has no idea what he means to me. I didn't make it clear.

[monie]

Yeah, it was -- not great. Yoongi hurts over it still too. He blames himself. I blamed him too. I don't now but you know. I wasn't grateful when I was saved, I was just hurting. I said some shit and it's hard to forget.

His father and my father know how to make someone suffer. They were determined to test us, I guess. And they did :P

I'm sure you'll have chance to tell him yet.

[yourhope]

I'll never understand why they did all that. Like... What was the point? When we met, you were always pissy with Yoongi. You were so angry at him and I didn't get why and I didn't get why he put up with it. Took me so long to figure it out, I just thought you were a disrespectful, ungrateful little shit.

Maybe. Hopefully. Or maybe I shouldn't. He might be better off without me. I could just set him up for a good life.

[monie]

Man, you're really going for me today, huh? Love you too, hyung. But yeah, I was a pissy bastard but you gotta understand, I had nothing. I lost it all to be with Yoongi. Left school, left all my things and what I was trying to do. Where he saw freedom, I was misery. It was cold and I was hungry, I lost out for him to have fun. I didn't think I'd be the one they took.

I didn't think Yoongi loved me enough to save me either. He always picked you and his freedom, I kind of figured that's all he wanted.

See what he wants, it's hard to say. I don't know him well. I just know what you told me. He seemed to like you.

[yourhope]

If you could have the chance to give Yoongi that life he wanted away from all this, but without you, would you have done that? Or I guess if Yoongi would have done that for you, if he could have....

Damn. I'm sorry, I know, I keep poking this, I'm just in a bad headspace. I always knew Yoongi loved you more than anything. Even as Suga. I know it didn't seem that way to you.

[monie]

I don't know. Probably? I think he wants his freedom back more than anything. More than me, maybe? I don't know. I don't doubt he loves me but I do think he's unhappy. And I want him to be happier.

It's complicated. It'll always be complicated. We're not happy in this world but we don't have much of an option. We were raised in it.

I know that he probably did love me and I know you and he just adored Suga but I see it in my head and I just feel hate and sadness.

Of course I ain't never gonna tell him that.

[yourhope]

Well. Not to burst your bubble there, Namjoon, but I'm sure Yoongi knows that. I mean. You've made it very clear. Very, very often. Even just when I was there. I'm sure more when I wasn't.

I know Yoongi offered you the way out. Back then. After everything. Why didn't you take it? I'm just... I'm curious, you can tell me to shut up any time.