Waiting for your anpanman

[monie]

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[monie]

i trashed on your album ;; i thought you were a lie. i suck so much

we all did, they're great. tae is so happy.

he really wants us to date and be together. he has a very tiny and cute view of how easy that shit is.

[bluemold]

you were just honest about the album

dont stop being honest, i like honest

i like you

okay

let's do it

[monie]

I can't help being honest. I speak my mind a lot, always in trouble over it.

I'm glad you like me.

do

what?? wait

I'm confused

[bluemold]

I speak my mind a lot too, my reps secretly all hate me

date

whats the confusion?

[monie]

you wanna date me?

we met once and we didn't get a lot of time to talk so....

don't dates usually ... date???

shouldn't we have a date first?

NOT THAT I AM TURNING DOWN MIN YOONGI CAUSE HOLY SHIT YES

[bluemold]

well

im gonna be on tour in the us and europe for the next five weeks, so fitting in a date in seoul might be tricky

but dating isnt against my contract

and as your brother has established, were both lonely

so we can try this and see what happens

cause even if this became a thing with in person dates, this would always be a thing too

i dont get much time off, work always comes first, i spend more time in the studio than anywhere else, im tired basically always and im rlly not that much of a catch so

i feel a trial period before proper dating is just fair to you

[monie]

I'm socially awkward with two jobs and three kids, one officially mine. I ain't got much time either.

Maybe this kinda is ideal.

I mean, I'm exhausted all the time and extra effort going out is a lot. It's nice to just chill at home and talk.

Besides, I don't have to worry if my brother will like you or you'll be nice to him.

I know that.

[bluemold]

see? this is why they call me a genius

...they dont actually call me a genius because of stuff like this, thatd be rlly weird

i dont do stuff like this

i mean, i am doing it now

this is already going terribly

[monie]

We can be geniuses in love then.

I don't either.

We're gonna suck a lot but we suck together???

you, erm, you do like Tae, right? Cause if you have any issues there, it's a big deal breaker. Don't say yes then lose your temper with him later, be a dick or anything. I need to know now.

[bluemold]

i like kids

doesnt fit the image, but i like kids

and i dont lose my temper, i just stare at people and then eventually release a diss track to destroy them

...not that id release a diss track about your baby brother

but srsly, tae seems really cute, you two have the same smile, its sweet he got all shy and his words about my music almost made ME tear up

[monie]

We do a lot of work on emotions and how to express ourselves, he had some issues and ... we struggled but we are where we are.

I want him to be safe above all else.

So if you're cool with Tae and you got no issues then... good. This is good.

Makes me happy.

[bluemold]

good, i wanna make you happy

you dont gotta tell me anything, but i wanna tell you that i get stuff

i know im ... im all this now, but i wasnt always and i get things can be hard

hoping things will keep getting easier and better for you

[monie]

I know you struggled, i listened to your music and i watched your interviews.

you probably get it.

get what it's like to have to chose between taking the bus and eating with your money. it's a tricky life.

i used to give up my lunch money to buy tae food cause i could only feed one of us. luckily i had jin and hobi. life is hard but it gets better. look at me now, i got enough for both of us!

[bluemold]

you are a really good brother

is it weird to say that makes you more attractive? because it does

you know a lot about me already, i guess, you got a leg up

[monie]

I'm glad it does!

Sexy hyung :P

you can ask me anything, you know? I know a lot about you. The anxiety, the struggles, the shit you rap about. So. It's only fair if we're dating. If I don't wanna answer, I won't but... ask.

[bluemold]

you also know why i give such great answers when they ask me about my ideal girl

guess we should get it outta the way

reason you are taking care of your brother, im guessing your parents sucked?

[monie]

I love every last one of those ideal girl answers, jsyk

yeah, dad was a raging alcoholic. beat me senseless for sixteen years, i got away from him and he got a new kid so i had to come back. he knew how to dick with me. i know he did it on purpose. i was his money maker, you see. cause i'm smart. used to make me count cards.

we have different moms. both sucked but i don't blame taes mom for leaving, he tried to kill her with a smashed bottle.

sorry if that's tmi but... it's best you know now cause tae still has nightmares and no filter so it comes up with him a lot.

[bluemold]

dont apologise, i asked

only reason i regret it is cause this feels like a hugging moment more than a talking moment

im sorry, joon-ah, thats awful... you are amazing for pulling through like that

you are a really strong person. thank you for telling me


now you can tell me what your ideal girl is

[monie]

i don't hate it so much??? if that makes sense. a lot of bad came from it but so much good.

i had hobi and jin take care of me, we met cause of that whole mess. tae, he came from it, he's my little boy and i love him.

i got no regrets

but i got scars so if that turns you off, we probably have an issue


errrrrrrm. manly??? idk. i'm so gay. i guess i like a girl in converse highs?

[bluemold]

i know what you mean, we get where we are through what life throws at us. you are amazing and im lucky you got good friends and a good kid out of it

nah, scars like that just show how great you are

make you hotter


noted, gonna see if i cant wear mine more often ;) thats weirdly specific ftr

[monie]

I have one scar that sorta looks like a frowny face... no lie. it's like three different scars but it lined up so fucking perfectly and i am excited for you to see it :D

I called it Mister Grumpy and I show Tae whenever he upsets me. Then he feels bad.

i just really like converse highs. not lows. just highs.

errrrm, anything else you wanna ask? I don't think we can get MORE personal so whatever.

[bluemold]

where is that scar? wanna know how excited to be

okay, converse highs, i gotcha

i got another one, but jsyk, if there is anything you wanna know, you can ask too... i mean, i know a lot is out there, but still

i wanna ask about your email address

you rap?

[monie]

on my lower tummy near my hip <3

uhhhhh, well, i DID when i had free time and i life.

i had this idea that i'd be a rapper and i was in a group with like four other kids, we did have a lot of fun but then tae happened and

you know, you can't really turn up at a rap event with a toddler.

he cried at the bass in the speaker when i tried, like a dumb 16 year old, and i never did it again... god, i could of fucked up his ears so bad.

but yeah, i rapped. once. i was not great.

[bluemold]

then im very excited to see that scar... maybe feel it, maybe lick it

i bet you were better than you think you are

just like you are waaaay hotter than you think you are

[monie]

you can lick me anywhere. mostly. some places would be weird to lick.

if you say so, man. You're the one who has to look at my face.

okay, i got a question

explain the grindr thing. you did it to make a point to a guy.... explain