Waiting for your anpanman

[monie]

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[bluemold]

i like kids

doesnt fit the image, but i like kids

and i dont lose my temper, i just stare at people and then eventually release a diss track to destroy them

...not that id release a diss track about your baby brother

but srsly, tae seems really cute, you two have the same smile, its sweet he got all shy and his words about my music almost made ME tear up

[monie]

We do a lot of work on emotions and how to express ourselves, he had some issues and ... we struggled but we are where we are.

I want him to be safe above all else.

So if you're cool with Tae and you got no issues then... good. This is good.

Makes me happy.

[bluemold]

good, i wanna make you happy

you dont gotta tell me anything, but i wanna tell you that i get stuff

i know im ... im all this now, but i wasnt always and i get things can be hard

hoping things will keep getting easier and better for you

[monie]

I know you struggled, i listened to your music and i watched your interviews.

you probably get it.

get what it's like to have to chose between taking the bus and eating with your money. it's a tricky life.

i used to give up my lunch money to buy tae food cause i could only feed one of us. luckily i had jin and hobi. life is hard but it gets better. look at me now, i got enough for both of us!

[bluemold]

you are a really good brother

is it weird to say that makes you more attractive? because it does

you know a lot about me already, i guess, you got a leg up

[monie]

I'm glad it does!

Sexy hyung :P

you can ask me anything, you know? I know a lot about you. The anxiety, the struggles, the shit you rap about. So. It's only fair if we're dating. If I don't wanna answer, I won't but... ask.

[bluemold]

you also know why i give such great answers when they ask me about my ideal girl

guess we should get it outta the way

reason you are taking care of your brother, im guessing your parents sucked?

[monie]

I love every last one of those ideal girl answers, jsyk

yeah, dad was a raging alcoholic. beat me senseless for sixteen years, i got away from him and he got a new kid so i had to come back. he knew how to dick with me. i know he did it on purpose. i was his money maker, you see. cause i'm smart. used to make me count cards.

we have different moms. both sucked but i don't blame taes mom for leaving, he tried to kill her with a smashed bottle.

sorry if that's tmi but... it's best you know now cause tae still has nightmares and no filter so it comes up with him a lot.

[bluemold]

dont apologise, i asked

only reason i regret it is cause this feels like a hugging moment more than a talking moment

im sorry, joon-ah, thats awful... you are amazing for pulling through like that

you are a really strong person. thank you for telling me


now you can tell me what your ideal girl is

[monie]

i don't hate it so much??? if that makes sense. a lot of bad came from it but so much good.

i had hobi and jin take care of me, we met cause of that whole mess. tae, he came from it, he's my little boy and i love him.

i got no regrets

but i got scars so if that turns you off, we probably have an issue


errrrrrrm. manly??? idk. i'm so gay. i guess i like a girl in converse highs?

[bluemold]

i know what you mean, we get where we are through what life throws at us. you are amazing and im lucky you got good friends and a good kid out of it

nah, scars like that just show how great you are

make you hotter


noted, gonna see if i cant wear mine more often ;) thats weirdly specific ftr

[monie]

I have one scar that sorta looks like a frowny face... no lie. it's like three different scars but it lined up so fucking perfectly and i am excited for you to see it :D

I called it Mister Grumpy and I show Tae whenever he upsets me. Then he feels bad.

i just really like converse highs. not lows. just highs.

errrrm, anything else you wanna ask? I don't think we can get MORE personal so whatever.

[bluemold]

where is that scar? wanna know how excited to be

okay, converse highs, i gotcha

i got another one, but jsyk, if there is anything you wanna know, you can ask too... i mean, i know a lot is out there, but still

i wanna ask about your email address

you rap?

[monie]

on my lower tummy near my hip <3

uhhhhh, well, i DID when i had free time and i life.

i had this idea that i'd be a rapper and i was in a group with like four other kids, we did have a lot of fun but then tae happened and

you know, you can't really turn up at a rap event with a toddler.

he cried at the bass in the speaker when i tried, like a dumb 16 year old, and i never did it again... god, i could of fucked up his ears so bad.

but yeah, i rapped. once. i was not great.

[bluemold]

then im very excited to see that scar... maybe feel it, maybe lick it

i bet you were better than you think you are

just like you are waaaay hotter than you think you are

[monie]

you can lick me anywhere. mostly. some places would be weird to lick.

if you say so, man. You're the one who has to look at my face.

okay, i got a question

explain the grindr thing. you did it to make a point to a guy.... explain

[bluemold]

thats quite the offer to make, ill keep it in mind, tongue technology and all

someone i used to... date, i guess

he told me that no one would put up with me if they actually knew me and the only ones i could get were stalker fans writing letters about how they want to keep me tied to their bed

for some reason grindr seemed like a good idea to prove him wrong

i wasnt sober

[monie]

yeah, i was gonna say.

that is a really stupid plan. did you decide to show him with all the dick pics you got??? oh, hyung. you're cute.

tho, to be fair, i know two lots of people now who are doing well datung out of grindr. we're one of them but hey

it's going pretty well so far.

[bluemold]

dont even know, he always makes me be irrational and the alcohol didn't help

plus, i cant really go to a gay club and shake my booty

i mean, i could, but that would be bad for my career and also i dont really like clubbing

so this is a lot better

[monie]

that's a shame, you have a great booty

10/10

i don't like clubs either. any more. as a teenager, yeah but now it's just all noise and i can't drink cause i come home to a tiny boy.

you know, i spent 250 on his bed, right? and an extra 25 on sheets and pillows, all that stuff.

and he won't sleep in it, he sleeps ON me.

[bluemold]

i haven't got a good enough shot of your booty yet, make sure to tell your friend to take one so I can admire

that's adorable

annoying, but adorable

hey, so, i dont wanna stray into sugar daddy territory here, but i can get tae a present some time, right? maybe the other kids

is that okay?

[monie]

It's nothing special, I'm afraid. Not flat but not popping like yours. Maybe I should rock tighter jeans, then we'll find out.

so annoying, so ridic annoying.

uh, yeah, that's great. he'd be so happy. We don't need anything from you, we handle stuff just fine but ... presents are lovely and i really appreciate the thought.

thank you. sincerely.

[bluemold]

yes. rock tighter jeans.

what does tae like?

aside from being annoying

no, thank you... i like giving stuff

my family never wants much and i ran out of other people

[monie]

hmmm

he likes you, tigers, aliens and stitch. you know? from the movie.

i got him a soft toy stitch for his birthday and it's his best friend, they hide under the bed and bitch about me when i tell him off

he has a very active imagination. he loves fantasy, scifi and anything like that.

and he really likes hobi's not-boyfriend's gucci coat :P

[bluemold]

i love that movie

aw, no wonder he loves it too

i think ill get him a couple things then, maybe i can find stuff you cant get in sk

gucci? fancy boy

what brand do you like?