"I just write a lot. But it doesn't always help. Sometimes it just means it's on the paper, but still in my head." So many thoughts and worries, so many memories. So much more all inside him and then Namjoon talking about jacking off. He made a face. "Hyung, if you talk like that, people will know you are a pervert." Yes, he just said 'know' instead of 'think'. Small, but savage.
"He's gonna be!" Tae had no idea, but he assumed, studying the page. "They are making fun of him cause he's different. So they say he's ugly. But..." Tae turned the page, just to check. "Now he's sad... I'm sure he'll be good at the end though."
"... Hey!" He playfully shoved Yoongi and then got him in a headlock. "I'm your appa, brat. Don't call me a perv." He let go of him, smiling as he picked up a mental health book and shoved it at his chest. "You better fix that mind of yours, going around and talking to your hyung like that. No respect."
Jungkook was nervous. Yoongi always knew if it ended good or not, always promised him and assured him. Tae didn't know and every page, he just kept getting sadder and sadder. "His mommy didn't want him..." Jungkook's lower lip wobbled. "Cause he's ugly?" His mommy didn't want him, was it because he was ugly too?
"I respect, I respect." Yoongi laughed and ruffled his hair to get it back in order, then looked at the book Namjoon had shoved at him, inspecting it curiously. "I wish it was easy to be happy. I think I don't have the talent."
"Oh, but he's not ugly! Look how cute he is." Tae sensed the distress and so he kept turning the pages quickly. "Oh, and look, he's growing all big! Look how pretty!" Tae stopped at the page where the bird had turned into a beautiful swan and let Jungkook look at it. "See? All beautiful!"
"You'll get there. When I was a kid, I thought I'd always feel like hell. Like I was lost in a blackhole. You get through it." Reaching out, he placed a hand on Yoongi's shoulder. "You just have to be patient and work with me. I know it's tricky. It's hard for me too but I want you to be happy and I'll do all it takes. For you, Jungkook and Tae. All of you."
Jungkook settled but he did cry, wiping his eyes with his sleeve and sniffling. The duck wasn't love until he got better and was prettier. He had to work hard and be perfect or no one would love him. "Tae, do you love me?" He looked at his big brother and leaned into him."Am I pretty?"
"Okay, I will work with you." Whatever that meant. Cognition, Yoongi supposed. "I will work on my head." He held up the book that Namjoon had handed him, nodding very seriously. "But now we have to check on the kids." He was a responsible guy.
"You've always been the prettiest! My Kookie." Tae hugged him close. "You know what matters the most? How you are on the inside!" Luckily, Tae had absorbed a lot of wisdom from years of watching cartoons. "And you are beautiful on the inside and a cute little bunny on the outside. I love you so, so, so, so, so, sooooo much! Ever since I've met you."
Namjoon walked over with Yoongi and raised an eyebrow, coming around to look at the book, wincing. Ooh, poor choice. "That book is brutal, huh?"
Jungkook turned around, sniffling and crying a little as he got up, running to Yoongi and hugging his leg, talking so fast that a lot of his words got smushed together or lost in gasps but if Namjoon heard it right, he definitely was upset about the duckling. Namjoon came over and sat down next to Tae, smiling at him. "We're you being a good hyung? Taking care of Kookie, such a big boy."
Yoongi crouched down so he could take Jungkook into his arms and hug him close, frowning as he tried to put together just what had upset him so much. Oh. Oh, that made sense. "It's just a story, Kookie. Shall we read another one?" Damage control was important. Yoongi scanned the categories the books were in and quickly picked up one of the ones that was about making friends. That should be nice, right? "Look, Kookie, so many different animals! Can you find the crocodile? There is a duckie too! And a bunny."
"I didn't mean to make him cry..." Tae looked distraught, rubbing the back of his head. "I'm sorry!"
"It's okay, you didn't do bad. That book is a nightmare. Kookie is just a little tired and so, he's bound to get upset. You were such a good hyung." He pulled Tae into his lap and kissed the top of his head, bouncing him a little. "Well done for showing him how pretty the duckling can be. You're smart."
Jungkook rubbed at his eyes and pointed at the crocodile, trying to be a big boy and stop crying. He pointed at the bunny next and then rubbed at his eyes. "I'm pretty. Tae said I'm pretty." So he had to be kept.
"Tae is right. You are pretty. Pretty and smart and funny and you are the most important to hyung, yeah?" Yoongi smiled, wiping away a tear from Jungkook's cheek. "Do you remember when we first met? I told you that you are with me and I'm your hyung and that's forever. Yeah?"
Tae nodded, still a bit worried, but Yoongi was talking to Jungkook and Yoongi could always fix everything. "I don't know if it's so good to be pretty sometimes... Like, when perverts call you pretty! That's bad! I tell Jiminie."
"Forever." Jungkook nodded in agreement and snuggled up against his brother, a little overwhelmed and tired from his meltdown, he just wanted to quietly rest against the comforting presence of his hyung and not be stressed out or upset.
"Depends who calls you pretty, yeah? Your appa or your hyungs saying it? That's fine. That's okay. Nice people who are just saying hi, that's okay sometimes. If they're a stranger and they scare you, it's not okay. People like Cheon? Nope." Yes, he knew that name and no, he was not happy that he had tried to mess with their kids. Fucking bastard. He'd arrest him soon enough.
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"He's gonna be!" Tae had no idea, but he assumed, studying the page. "They are making fun of him cause he's different. So they say he's ugly. But..." Tae turned the page, just to check. "Now he's sad... I'm sure he'll be good at the end though."
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Jungkook was nervous. Yoongi always knew if it ended good or not, always promised him and assured him. Tae didn't know and every page, he just kept getting sadder and sadder. "His mommy didn't want him..." Jungkook's lower lip wobbled. "Cause he's ugly?" His mommy didn't want him, was it because he was ugly too?
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"Oh, but he's not ugly! Look how cute he is." Tae sensed the distress and so he kept turning the pages quickly. "Oh, and look, he's growing all big! Look how pretty!" Tae stopped at the page where the bird had turned into a beautiful swan and let Jungkook look at it. "See? All beautiful!"
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Jungkook settled but he did cry, wiping his eyes with his sleeve and sniffling. The duck wasn't love until he got better and was prettier. He had to work hard and be perfect or no one would love him. "Tae, do you love me?" He looked at his big brother and leaned into him."Am I pretty?"
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"You've always been the prettiest! My Kookie." Tae hugged him close. "You know what matters the most? How you are on the inside!" Luckily, Tae had absorbed a lot of wisdom from years of watching cartoons. "And you are beautiful on the inside and a cute little bunny on the outside. I love you so, so, so, so, so, sooooo much! Ever since I've met you."
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Namjoon walked over with Yoongi and raised an eyebrow, coming around to look at the book, wincing. Ooh, poor choice. "That book is brutal, huh?"
Jungkook turned around, sniffling and crying a little as he got up, running to Yoongi and hugging his leg, talking so fast that a lot of his words got smushed together or lost in gasps but if Namjoon heard it right, he definitely was upset about the duckling. Namjoon came over and sat down next to Tae, smiling at him. "We're you being a good hyung? Taking care of Kookie, such a big boy."
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"I didn't mean to make him cry..." Tae looked distraught, rubbing the back of his head. "I'm sorry!"
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Jungkook rubbed at his eyes and pointed at the crocodile, trying to be a big boy and stop crying. He pointed at the bunny next and then rubbed at his eyes. "I'm pretty. Tae said I'm pretty." So he had to be kept.
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Tae nodded, still a bit worried, but Yoongi was talking to Jungkook and Yoongi could always fix everything. "I don't know if it's so good to be pretty sometimes... Like, when perverts call you pretty! That's bad! I tell Jiminie."
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"Depends who calls you pretty, yeah? Your appa or your hyungs saying it? That's fine. That's okay. Nice people who are just saying hi, that's okay sometimes. If they're a stranger and they scare you, it's not okay. People like Cheon? Nope." Yes, he knew that name and no, he was not happy that he had tried to mess with their kids. Fucking bastard. He'd arrest him soon enough.