I'm sorry, change your career

[cutedevil]

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[bluemold]

"I haven't made promises, because I don't know how things will go. It's a gamble. I know what I'm doing, but that doesn't mean it will pay off." He was certainly hoping, but it was far from a sure bet. "My thought is that having you with me would sway some people reluctant to fall in line. In whatever capacity. You aren't part of the business, which helps. It would be symbolic more than anything. I don't really know yet."

It was the kind of thing that he'd like to discuss with Namjoon, but he didn't know if that would go well.

[cutedevil]

"So I could be out with you or I could just be a captive puppet you bring out to win people over?" He wished he could just go back to how it was. It was less uncertain, he was less scared. He wanted to play with Yoongi, to flirt and have fun but how did he? He knew death was looming over him. "I really don't want to die."

He just thought he should get that out there. "I'm scared of dying." He thought it'd be nothing. Empty. Horrible. He didn't like the idea. He ate a little more rice and swallowed hard. "If you do ever kill me, please don't tell me before. Let it be a surprise."

[bluemold]

"There's worse things than death, I guess. Sometimes I feel like it'd be easier. But don't worry. I won't die." He had to stay alive, for the sake of Jungkook, for the sake of everyone he felt responsible for. No easy way out for him. But of course, death would be a more frightening concept for Ten. He nodded at his request, feeling a little bad that this was what was on his mind right now. Not that he could blame him.

"If we both survive, I'll take you out on a date some time."

[cutedevil]

"Like being tied up with a hood on forever and ever?" Ten was thinking a lot about that lately. People who suffered that. There was no sense of time, nothing grounding, it was so scary. Maybe that was what death felt like. He didn't like to think about it. "There are worse ways to live, I guess but I'm still afraid to be dead."

He smiled faintly and moved closer to Yoongi, their legs brushing together. "I would like that. I know a lot of people here wouldn't but... I like you."

[bluemold]

"M-hm. Give that a few weeks of freedom when you're not reliant on me as your only company and I'm sure you'll change your mind." Yoongi had no delusions there. He might be using the psychological effect, but that also meant that he was very aware of it. "I'm not very likeable."

And he highly doubted that he was going to become more likeable, now that things were being set into motion.

[cutedevil]

"Aww, you think you've been likeable this far? I know you're being nice, which is funny cause Hobi called you the 'bad cop' but ... I don't think you are. You're not likeable all the time but you're good." He smiled at Yoongi, he couldn't say that he'd had the best time with him, he found him quite cruel and unfair in his own ways but he brought him food and he was cute. It was pretty good right now. "I like you in spite of what you did to me. I dunno. You seem to care and I never cared about anything. I like to learn from you. I think you're interesting."

He ate some more rice and then looked down, studying the bowl. "I -- Are you sure you have to kill my dad? Can't I just oust him like Cheon wanted?"

[bluemold]

"No, I don't think I'm ever likeable. I just think you like me for lack of options." Yoongi shrugged and looked up at the ceiling. "I could be more of a bad cop, but I'm getting what I want from you this way, so it's working." Obviously not for his friends, but that was something he would have to deal with with them, not something to discuss with Ten. "But you're right, I do care. Glad you think it's interesting."

He looked at Ten from the side, shaking his head. "He killed my father in front of me. I can't compromise on that."

[cutedevil]

"I could get rid of him. Come on, he's my dad. I never wanted him dead. I could just ... I can give you all of his money and then you send him away." He reached out, gripping on Yoongi's arms and trying to look him in the eyes. "Killing him won't undo what happened. You're just taking my dad from me. Can't you just -- I mean, he won't even rule. Just kill Cheon!"

He was the bad guy here. "Mafia hits aren't personal. Don't make it personal."

[bluemold]

"You're right, it's not personal. Killing has stopped being personal to me. I used to see your father's face whenever I killed." Now he didn't feel that drive for revenge anymore, he just knew what had to be done. "I need to establish myself. He all but wiped out my clan. It's not a time for lenience. Leaving you alive would show strength and honour. Leaving him alive would show weakness."

[cutedevil]

"So there's no way around it? My dad dies?" And he played a hand in it. He felt like such a traitor. He wasn't close with his dad, he didn't have much love for him but his mother had. His people did. They'd always seem him as a traitor. "I don't want to see my dad die. If you do it." He didn't want to see the look of disappointment on his face. "He always said I was a screw up and an idiot. He won't even be surprised I fucked up."

[bluemold]

"Nothing you could have done or not done would have changed your father's fate, Ten. He sealed that the day that I got away from him, that has nothing to do with you." Yoongi didn't like thinking back on that day, but of course these days it was on his mind constantly. "You won't have to see it. But it's not on you. You were just needed out of the way, that's all."

[cutedevil]

"I don't feel great about it." Why would he? He was flirting with his father's future murderer all the time. He dropped his head back and sighed slowly, just looking at Yoongi and studying him for a while. "So you kill my dad and, maybe, Cheon. Take over. Then what?" It didn't seem like a great plan for a guy who wanted to play piano but then, what did he know. "Your men might demand I die. I know they already are." He gestured upward.

[bluemold]

"We will see." Yoongi wished things were easier, but that was a childish wish. Things were never easy. Why would they start now? If anything, it was getting harder. Namjoon weighed heavily on his mind and he didn't know how any of this was going to go. "If they start seeing you as an asset to me rather than a danger to us, they'll change their minds."

It should work. It certainly made sense to him. Convincing everyone else, at least here, that might be more of a challenge.

[cutedevil]

"And how do I do that? I keep telling you things but ... it doesn't seem to make you happy. Or anyone." He didn't think that Yoongi was overly unimpressed but with every bit of information, he seemed sadder and Ten wondered if it was because he was right all along. They'll get everything from him and slowly edge him towards spilling it all. Then he was dead.

He would never leave the basement again. Leaning forward, he impulsively kissed Yoongi. He didn't know why. He was the only person close to him, the man who'd kill him, and he wanted something from him.

[bluemold]

"I'm just not a very happy person," Yoongi argued, looking off at nothing and therefore taken off-guard at the kiss. He found himself kissing back, an arm going around Ten and then he thought about the ramifications and he turned his head to the side, breathing out slowly.

"Ten, you can't... I-- It doesn't work like that." He wasn't sure what Ten was hoping for by seducing him, but either way, he couldn't let it happen. "I'll keep you alive as long as it's in my power. You don't have to kiss me for that."

[cutedevil]

"It's not for that. It's because of that." He was going to die, sooner or later, he knew it was on the cards and this was the last chance he'd get at something even remotely close to love. He never had it from his father or from Cheon, he just wanted to an illusion of it before he died.

He leaned in again, trying to be forceful, trying to get another kiss. He kissed back before, he knew that he wanted it. "Kiss me. Fuck me. Why can't you? Who cares? Who'll know? It's just us!" It wasn't like anyone had to know. "Please."

[bluemold]

"You're overestimating my acting ability." Among other things. Yoongi closed his eyes, knowing that he should just leave, but instead he turned his head again, instead he kissed him once more, this time pushing him onto the mattress and leaning over him. No, he wouldn't fuck him, he couldn't, he had to have some self-control here, but they had already kissed, so would another kiss really hurt?

[cutedevil]

Ten sprawled back on the mattress and his hands went up, linking around the back of Yoongi's neck, trying to keep him there, to push him down and be closer. He kissed him back, eager and needy. He was getting this, he didn't care what he had to do. He didn't care if they thought he was pathetic. He was going to hold on. "Just do it. Please. Fuck me!"

[bluemold]

"No, Ten, I can't do that." Under the circumstances, it didn't feel that different from if he had drugged him and that thought alone was enough to keep him grounded, even if he was looking down at him, knowing he was hard and ready, knowing how easy it would be. Anyway, on the practical side of things it wasn't as if he had lube or a condom anyway. "Not now. I can't do this now."

He wanted to, but that was a different matter. Yoongi kissed him again, but pulled back when he realised he was grinding against him. Damn.

[cutedevil]

Ten whimpered and jerked his hips up, rutting eagerly against Yoongi and just trying to get somewhere. He didn't want to hear about what he couldn't do. He just held on harder, one leg coming over Yoongi to further cling to him. He was so hard, it was hard to notice. "Y-You can't tie me up again." He breathed heavily, hips still working. "Hurt me. Whatever it takes. Do it."

He looked up at Yoongi, desperate and wanting. "It's not taking advantage if I want it."

[bluemold]

Yoongi rolled off Ten, keeping a hand on his shoulder to hold him down. Fuck, how could this be happening? He swallowed thickly and looked at him, glad that he was limber enough to just get out of his grip and both loving and hating this entire situation. "You really are a horny bastard, huh?"

He shifted a little, swallowing again. "I need to sell you to my team as not being a manipulative little shit, you are really not helping your case." Fuck, his dick was throbbing.

[cutedevil]

"I'm not being manipulative. I just know you're going to kill me. I want one last chance at -- at something! You owe me!" Ten was yelling now, he couldn't help it. He never took rejection well. He reached out and grabbed onto Yoongi's shirt, he knew he didn't have the strength to beat him but he tried the best he could, tried to keep him close.

"Why can't you just man up and fuck me?" Since when was it this hard to seduce a guy? "I want you. Can't you see that?"

[bluemold]

"Yeah. Yeah, I can see that. And as flattering as that is, this isn't how it works." Yoongi gripped Ten's wrist so he could pull him off him, not feeling like playing around. "I'm not going to fuck you." There, he had said it, now he knew he wouldn't back off it. More important for him than Ten even, because he knew he had been on the verge of just giving in to temptation. "I want to respect you, Ten. Please allow me to do that."

[cutedevil]

"Who cares about respect? No one respects me! I'm a brat. A spoilt brat. You said it yourself. Just -- stop being like this." He wanted to fuck, he wanted to be loved, he wanted Yoongi and he wasn't going to get him. And that hurt. He hated that lately, nothing could possibly ever go his way. In a moment of impulse, he shoved Yoongi hard and balled his fists.

He wished he could hit him but he didn't think he could. "You want to. I can see you dick from here. Just do it."

[bluemold]

"I think you should start respecting yourself. I know that this person you actually are, the one underneath all this? I could respect him. Please let me." Yoongi bowed his head as if making a formal request, trying to act as if his dick wasn't hard. He let Ten shove him, but didn't budge, just frowned. "You want more than just a fuck. I can tell. I would like to try and give you more, so I can't give you this."