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[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Minjun had stopped to look at the picture in reality, after he had seen it in dreams and on a poster. And Gyungho had been right. Only in his dreams had it looked right. Or wrong in the right way. However to describe that. This one? In this, he didn't recognise himself. But the edge was gone as well. That unsettling feeling, that fear he knew now Gyungho felt. How come it was missing?

He had been so lost in looking at it, he hadn't even noticed Gyungho next to him until he spoke. Then he turned his head and stared at him. Oh.

It hurt to look at him. The emotion was so intense, he had to blink. Tears, he felt like crying. What was this?

"What's wrong about it?"
cuminjun: (tonguey)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
"Minjun." Minjun bowed his head a little, partly just to try and get rid of what definitely felt like a dorky smile on his lips. Not the right reaction at all, not when he wanted to be cool and mysterious, sweep him off his feet. But part of him wanted to just memorise every word he'd said and maybe roll around on his bed and scream like a schoolboy being acknowledged by his crush. Whatever. He could shake that off.

He straightened up again, looking at Gyungho. "Should I pose for you?" He was grinning in a more intentional way now.
cuminjun: (yeah)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't think I like anything more than I like you." Minjun said it as if it was a natural thing to say. Smooth, perhaps, but perhaps just weird. Whatever, he was going with his instincts here. "I'm an accountant. I don't know if my card will help you much, unless you need your taxes sorted."

Which, hey, maybe he did. Minjun looked at the picture, shrugging. "As you say. I feel something is lacking. It feels as if he should have a heart, but in this? He doesn't. Maybe that was what was different in your head. With how you talked about it. When I look at this, I don't hurt."

When he looked at Gyungho though? Oh yes.
cuminjun: (go on)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
"Like you know a person? Guess so." Minjun felt safer just looking at the picture, because if he looked at Gyungho... He knew he wouldn't be able to hide it for long. Just how deeply he felt for him. And the last thing he wanted to do was scare him off, weird him out. Slowly, he had to do this slowly. "But no, I'm not a model. I don't even like showing my face much. Usually I wear a face mask."

To demonstrate, Minjun pulled his black face mask up. And then he did turn his eyes on Gyungho, wanting to see whether there would be another spark of recognition.

Minjun had a reason to be shy about showing his face. The fewer records of his face, the better. He had plans, after all.
cuminjun: (tongue action)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 10:48 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'll stay as long as you want me." Minjun left it at that, not looking away this time. Not yet. He had to face this. But he pulled the mask back down and smiled, because he didn't want to scare Gyungho and he knew that he was. Among so many other emotions, if this was anything for Gyungho as it was for him. He slowly turned away, looking at the art piece in front of him. The words Gyungho had chosen before. To be loved like that and have it be mutual? Of course he could change the world with that by his side.
cuminjun: (tonguey)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know." Minjun frowned, not sure how honest his answer should be. Finally he settled on a partial truth. "Your art gets to me. I look at it and I feel things and I never feel like it's enough. Like you said. As if I should do something to complete it. Cut myself and bleed out, just so you have something to complete it with."

All right, maybe he had gone too far already. He let out a laugh, shaking his head. Always too intense. Sangwoo would mock him over that. He turned so he could look at Gyungho. "You look just as I thought you would, you know?"
cuminjun: (yeah)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know. It's good, because you look good. You know that." Had to, couldn't not know. He was handsome, in the way that startled people. Like he should be photographed at any moment, because his face was perfect from every angle. Masculine, yet beautiful. "But then, if you were ugly, maybe it'd be easier to look away from you. This feels like you aren't playing fair, you know? What am I supposed to do with that?"
cuminjun: (cutie)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"I bet you were hot before too. I'd always think so, anyway." Minjun lifted his shoulders a bit, not too concerned about that. He had vague memories of Gyungho looking differently and, yeah. The draw had still been there. And now that same softness was still in his eyes too, belying the sharpness of his features. "I've been told I'm wild. All my accountant friends are scared of me."

He didn't really have accountant friends. Perhaps for obvious reasons. "But don't tell me you don't get hit on a lot. That old guy with the silk suit, he wanted to take you home giftwrapped tonight."
cuminjun: (tonguey)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 11:14 pm (UTC)(link)
"I wasn't planning on it. Anyway, you are the older, richer guy. You should be the one perving on me." If they wanted an accurate representation here. "What's the matter, hyung? Am I not weird, isolated house material?"

Minjun smiled, keeping the tone light. Ignoring that little voice inside him that mocked him for how scared he was of taking this to a real place. How scared he was of that potential for rejection. He could just play. For a little bit longer.
cuminjun: (lippy)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 11:20 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's all right. So many ways to be romantic." Like coffee and talking. He hadn't done that with a guy in... Probably ever, if he was to be honest. He had done back-alley. But he had a feeling that Gyungho wasn't really that either. And he didn't want that to be what Gyungho was to him. "Then where should we go to talk? You seem like the expert."

And, yes, he had decided that their date started now.
cuminjun: (tongue action)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm all about terrible nightmares. Though lately, my dreams have been good." Or not really good or bad, but defining. Intense. The kind of dream that brought him here. "If you are treating, hyung--" He had to tease. "--then I hope they got the really fancy stuff on the menu."

He winked and moved closer to Gyungho, ready to follow him. Ready to follow him anywhere. "Where do you draw? I'm curious."
cuminjun: (outta there)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 11:33 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah? Where do you get your inspiration? Just anywhere?" Minjun looked at Gyungho and then, because he was being bold, because he really was, in the end, he moved in close against him, sliding an arm around his waist. He liked how it felt to be close to him like that. It felt like he belonged, in such a sudden and complete way, it almost felt like a shock. Minjun wasn't used to feeling like he belonged anywhere. "I like music. I like art too, but I'm not as good as you. I just colour my walls when the mood strikes. My place is colourful."
cuminjun: (go on)

[personal profile] cuminjun 2019-11-30 11:39 pm (UTC)(link)
"At school they got the idea that I was a genius, so I had to do something to get everyone off my back. Accounting works. Besides, I like numbers. Calm me sometimes." Sometimes, anyway. Because calm wasn't really something that Minjun felt a lot, especially not right now. No, it was like a storm raging inside of him. He wanted to be closer to Gyungho, impossibly. He wanted to whisper how he loved him against his lips.

But no. He had to be patient. "I'm not an accountant on the inside though. Really, I've black paint streaming all over me. Stains everything."

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