There it was. So easy. He didn't hug him yet, he didn't deserve it. "Who told you that you weren't grown up? Where had this bullshit even come from? You're a fucking adult, Tae. You need to stop being manipulated by every guy who says nice words to you. Remember Min-ho? You really want to be that stupid again?"
Sometimes he just needed a harsh reminder of his failings, of how easily he got attached to guards. Raising his hand finally, he cupped the back of Tae's head and pulled him in close. "Do you need me or do you need Doctor Kim?"
"I need you. I'm sorry. Don't be mad." Tae tried to keep from crying, he didn't want to cry too hard and be stuck with a headache all day, but it was hard. What could he do if Namjoon left him? He needed Namjoon, he needed him so much. "I won't be stupid."
But he made sure not to mention Jungkook. He didn't want Namjoon to take Jungkook from him. "I only need you. Doctor Kim is wrong." Obviously, had to be. He knew Namjoon was always right.
"Hey, hey, hey. Come on. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry. I just worry." He wasn't lying, he didn't like to hurt Tae and he just wanted him safe. Guys like Jin weren't safe, they just wanted to come with meds and drug them up, pretend like it was a fix when it wasn't. Tae wouldn't be better until Namjoon could fix it. Fix everything. Fix the world around them.
And he would. He'd do anything for Tae. Making him look up at him, he leaned forward and kissed him gently on the cheek. "Sorry, come on, don't cry. It's okay. You wanna go watch Hobi put his pants on his head because I heard him undressing on the way in so I know it's coming."
Grinning, he pressed their foreheads together. "All your hyungs just want to make you smile."
"Okay." Tae rubbed his eyes and really hoped Jimin was around, because Jimin was always nice and he wanted to talk to him about pretty boys, because Namjoon was always too worried to be receptive to that kind of talk. But he was mostly just happy that Namjoon wasn't mad anymore and so he smiled, taking his brother's hand. "When our plan works, you'll get me a spray can, right? I want to tag everywhere."
"Oh yeah, we'll tag everything like we used to. Think of this place like our own little city, we'll make it our own in every little way." With a bright smile, he held his brothers hand and pulled him along. "I got plans, you know? We tag every wall, repaint the rec room and we'll get the radio station back. We can rap." Well. He could. Tae could dab behind him.
"Yes! I'll rap, I'm getting better! Not that he exactly had much opportunity to really practise here, but that didn't stop him. He bounced a little, leaning against Namjoon when he watched Hobi be a dork, laughing at and with him. He liked when Hobi was happy like this, he wished he could always feel that way. He'd have walked over to him and Jimin, but he didn't want to let go of Namjoon's hand, not after how cold Namjoon had been before.
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Sometimes he just needed a harsh reminder of his failings, of how easily he got attached to guards. Raising his hand finally, he cupped the back of Tae's head and pulled him in close. "Do you need me or do you need Doctor Kim?"
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But he made sure not to mention Jungkook. He didn't want Namjoon to take Jungkook from him. "I only need you. Doctor Kim is wrong." Obviously, had to be. He knew Namjoon was always right.
"Thank you for the candy, hyung."
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And he would. He'd do anything for Tae. Making him look up at him, he leaned forward and kissed him gently on the cheek. "Sorry, come on, don't cry. It's okay. You wanna go watch Hobi put his pants on his head because I heard him undressing on the way in so I know it's coming."
Grinning, he pressed their foreheads together. "All your hyungs just want to make you smile."
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