powerboys | Is it you who changed or is it me?

"Sometimes. If I overexert, but it's not that bad." It was touching, Ten talking about his shoulder with concern. At the time when it had happened, Ten had already been pulling away from him, so logically concern hadn't been the prevailing emotion he showed then.

Yoongi felt something inside him break, but in a good way, if that made any sense. His heart hurt, but he had to smile. "You're gonna make me cry. I'll have to show you the times I crossdressed, then you can make fun of me instead of being sweet."

"I'm not that sweet, I'm still awful. I bet you're still sweet." Ten moved his chair along the table so he could be closer to Yoongi, sliding his food with him as he started to eat some before it got cold, watching him curiously. "Show me you as a girl. I want to see if I'm still attracted to you or not. Sometimes I am. You know, I'm very gay but some of these men when they crossdress?"

Ten whistled and then leaned over to see what Yoongi was going to find him.

"Right. I think I just looked like my aunt." Yoongi searched a video compilation on YouTube and clicked on it, full screening the video for Ten and letting him hold the phone, so he had some time to focus on eating again as well. "Hot, aren't I?" Something like that. "I did like playing with the gun. There is so much fanart of that."

Which he mostly knew because members had shown him before, but hey. He thought it was funny.

"You know, not the hottest person in drag I've ever seen but I do want you to step on me as I call you mommy so it's hit a lot of my kinks." Ten was never one to shy away from what he truly felt and he was as blunt as ever as he watched Yoonji break several hearts. Sexy. He liked that a lot. He watched Jimin blush and frowned a little.

"That guy looks exactly like my friend Team... only Korean." Weird. Well, he knew who Win's bias was.

"Jimin-ah? He's cute, isn't he? Bit annoying." But then, both of those things he'd say were true of most of the others, so that wasn't really surprising. "You don't have a bias yet, I guess, since you haven't watched a lot of our stuff."

He could understand that. Wanting to avoid him, avoid that. Like he was trying to not think too much about stepping on him and any kink like that. Although he did take his phone back to look up Daechwita and start that for Ten. "Look. I don't just write about you."

"Oh, I know. I didn't think you would. Though I love this. Whatever this is." He watched curiously and then smiled a little, knowing what likely inspired it. "Someone has been watching some period dramas. Oooh, you seen untamed yet? Chinese, sure, but so gay. You'd be surprised. I loved it."

He watched Yoongi flex without having to flex and laughed to himself, shaking his head. "You're so humble, king."

"I don't have to be humble. I'm a genius, didn't you know?" Yoongi grinned and then nodded. "Yeah, I watched Untamed. One of my members really likes it, Taehyung. I do too, I mean, it's close to being gay." He always appreciated that, even if he couldn't generally express that in his public life. "Sometimes I watch Thai BLs too. They all talk like you."

He did like that.

"Oh yeah, I have what some people call gay voice. No shame, I don't have it as bad as some people. Oh man, meet my friend In. You can't miss it with him." Ten laughed as he leaned on the table and watched the end of the video before stealing the phone and looking up some gay Thai MVs that he knew to show Yoongi.

"This is the sort of music I tend to listen to. I wish Korea was better about the gay stuff. Mot that I didn't love living there. It was a fun ride."

"I don't know if it's gonna get much better about gay stuff any time soon. Although it's still easier to hang out with guys than with girls, for me, so there is that." Not that he hung out much anyway, usually he met people for work pretty exclusively, but still. He watched the screen, smiling to himself. And reaching for Ten's hand again. "You'll have to show me all the gay."

"If you have free time between filming and you don't mind going off road, I can take you on a very lowkey and subtle gay tour. Gays in Thailand learned to be careful about how they advertise themselves so trust me." He smiled playfully at Yoongi and waggled his eyebrows before turning on another MV for him. "These two are my favourite. Oh! And after this, lemme show you Lucas and Kibo. They're so much like Team and Win."

Holding onto Yoongi's hand, he squeezed it lightly to show he was definitely enjoying this.

"I can't really do anything like that. I don't want you getting dragged or stalked or whatever. But you can show me like this." A lot less dangerous this way. Besides, it also meant that he could hold Ten's hand while discovering all the gay content, so it was really much preferable. "It's less likely to become a dating scandal, hanging with a guy, but it's still gonna get coverage."

"As you wish. Don't worry. I can also do a virtual tour. Seriously, there's a lot of gay stuff and it's all on my phone, can't be traced back to Min Yoongi of all people." With a small nod, Ten put on some music from his favourite BL Thai show and propped it up against the serving tray so they could eat, watch and hold hands inbetween.

Food, music and holding hands. That really took him back. "It's so easy to go back to how it was... isn't it? It feels natural."

"Feels good too." It still felt tentative as well, but Yoongi was focusing on the positive here. He wasn't missing Ten, for once. He was with Ten. Not alone in his room procrastinating until he could maybe get some work done and trying not to think of him, which would have been impossible while being in Thailand.

"I'll buy you a phone and proper headphones tomorrow. I am rich, I can do it. No arguments."

"Seriously? You've known me again for a day, don't be naive. You act like that and people will take advantage." Ten lectured because he felt it was important to press upon him that offering free shit was a bad idea. Even so, he knew it was coming. Of course it was. "You're so soft, sweet boy. I know I can't ever stop you from being you but I got to warn you at least."

Playing with Yoongi's fingers, he used his free hand to select a gay vlog to check out.

"You want me texting you, you can't do that on that piece of shit for long. I need you to admire my pictures properly anyway. Why do I bother using filters if I just look like I used a potato on your phone?" A valid question, he found. "I'm not giving away anything to just anyone."

Well. "There are some hot guys that got audio equipment, but that was because my hand slipped."

"Your hand slipped and your gay took over, huh? Been there. Do you have any idea how many times I've done something dumb for a hot boy... wait, of course you know. You were that hot boy." Ten had done some stupid shit for Yoongi over the years, mostly not even as requested. Once he walked all the way with him to meet a guy who might buy his music and he only sold one song. And they walked for nearly 3 hours to get there. It was a long ass walk.

"We did a lot of dumb shit for eachother."

"Guess so." They were flirting, right? Definitely flirting. Yoongi was watching the people on the phone screen kiss and mostly it just ended up making him look to the side and at Ten, wanting to kiss him. Of course that was he wanted. His gay was definitely threatening to take over him. "I just couldn't watch it any more. But now, you're doing better. Doing good. I like watching that."

"I get why you couldn't. I wasn't thinking. I was just scared. I knew you'd achieve and it freaked me out, I was scared of trying anything as well in case it failed and I got in my own head. Hung out with the wrong people. Did some horrible things to my body." Ten had a lot of regrets in his life by now and nothing good to show for any of it but some harsh lessons learned. He knew he wanted better. "When I came to Thailand, I was just desperate to be better. I wanted better."

He looked at Yoongi and met his eyes, his heart skipping a beat. Fuck, how was he still this hot? "Maybe some day I'll think myself worth your time. And hopefully you will too."

"You're worth my time now or I wouldn't be sitting here with you." Yoongi was very serious about that, looking at Ten with his hair all done, the earrings in his ear... Maybe he could buy him earrings too. All right, all right. Maybe he had an issue. But he didn't usually have someone to spoil. "Come on. You gotta know that-- You know what I'm thinking, right?"

"I really don't know. I think I have a thing in my head that I want you to think that could be true or it could be me being crazy." He thought that Yoongi maybe wanted to kiss him and fuck on that lovely king sized bed but he had a feeling that it was more that Yoongi was thinking that he was proud or something. And it'd be awkward to make an ass out of himself when he had to serve this guy for three months. "Usually I'm so confident but with you, I lose it all. I guess it's cause it's the most real thing to me."

"Hm. I don't know if I'm ever that confident. With people, that is. I'm pretty confident when I'm on stage. Or cooking." That was neither here nor there, but still. At least he wasn't entirely useless. Useless when it came to this? Apparently.

He turned a little more on the chair, catching Ten's eyes. Getting lost in them, really. "I want you to do well. Be happy. That's all I could have hoped for."

Reaching up, he held his hand against Ten's cheek. "Doesn't mean I'm not--"

He cut himself off by kissing him. Seemed best.

Oh yeah, that was best. It really said it all and the kissing was great. Seriously. they had like one or two kisses in their lifetime, most of them during drunken arguments but they still counted. Every single one was sexy, passionate and he never had any bad things to say about it. And this one was no different.

Ten didn't want to pull back but he did eventually, looking at Yoongi with a playful smirk on his face.

"I really want to go to that bed and do unspeakable things but I'm sure we'll regret it this quick. Even so... you're still the best kisser I know." And that was saying a lot.

"We will regret it?" Yoongi was asking, because his mind really hadn't caught on from the kissing just yet. All he cared about. The feel of Ten's lips, the way his heart was racing, the way his world shrunk down and expanded to become their world. What was there to regret about that?

His eyes wandered to the bed, but he didn't drag Ten there, so that was something. Instead he refocused on Ten, speaking quite seriously. "Don't kiss anyone else. You are mine."

"Oh, you're so hot. I can't believe I am doing this but... I just want you to think about it, yeah? Cause, see, the thing is, when did you last get laid? Cause I know it's been a while for me. And we want this to stay somewhat stable and -- God, what is wrong with me?" He hated himself. He was turning down sex? Was he insane? Being responsible was terrible and unlikely to last.

Getting up, he followed Yoongi to the bed and looked into his eyes, feeling the intensity and -- fuck it, he kissed him again.

Maybe it was supposed to be his place to be the responsible one, but any common sense had left him by the time he'd kissed Ten. Maybe even a good long while before then, when he had told him to show him to his room. Because now he pushed him away, but only to shove him onto the bed and he was already crawling on top of him a moment later, kissing him as if he was his source of oxygen, needy and eager.

Maybe he shouldn't have bothered getting dressed.

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