"No, I didn't." He did. There was no denying it, though Kangwoo would try. He beat up anyone who messed with his cousin, perhaps to the degree of overkill but he helped. He even helped Minjun tie his shoe laces and get snacks. He'd been so excited to be a hyung, he'd taken it with such pride. Spent hours explaining legos and Star Wars. Of course, things were easier then. "It's in the past. I don't think of the past. I keep going to the future, I keep trying to -- to not think because it's not important."

Because then he started thinking of what he lost, of all the pain and the hurt, the medical torture he endured. His eye twitched and he looked aside. "And what does it matter if I was good to you. You left anyway. So what does anything matter? It's all a lot of thankless bullshit."