"I'm not a good person. None of us are. Come on, we're gangsters. Dealing with blood money, exploiting people, selling drugs and breaking the law. No one in our world is good." Namjoon just didn't see himself or his father as good people. They just benefited from everyone else's misery. All the money he had came from someone's suffering.

"Honestly, I don't deal with as much as some. In the grand scheme of things, maybe this is just karma?" Or maybe he overthought ever little thing. Hard to say!