"So I could be out with you or I could just be a captive puppet you bring out to win people over?" He wished he could just go back to how it was. It was less uncertain, he was less scared. He wanted to play with Yoongi, to flirt and have fun but how did he? He knew death was looming over him. "I really don't want to die."

He just thought he should get that out there. "I'm scared of dying." He thought it'd be nothing. Empty. Horrible. He didn't like the idea. He ate a little more rice and swallowed hard. "If you do ever kill me, please don't tell me before. Let it be a surprise."