"That's the one I heard. You were pretty nice, given what I did. You also kept saying you missed me and I just -- I miss you too. A lot, actually. Never stopped." He knew he was an idiot to chase Yoongi away but he didn't think he had any choice back then, he wasn't a good friend and he didn't deserve Yoongi. He reached out, holding his hand and smiling sadly at Yoongi. "I wanted to self destruct and I did. For years. And I hated it but that was kind of the point. It was a life I wanted because I was... I was scared. It was never a life I wanted for you."

He swallowed and held onto Yoongi's hand tighter. "I don't regret what I did. I just regret who I was."