"I never wanted to rule, others were supposed to. It wasn't my fault! It's not my fault they all left me." Losing his father had been a hell of a blow but then his older brother as well. It was so unlikely and unexpected that he wasn't prepared. He had never wanted this position and every day, he made decisions that hurt someone. If one set of people didn't suffer, another set did. "But everything is my fault, isn't it? I'm the monster for having to make decisions no one should have to make!"

He didn't want to decide where to tax, what to do, which side of his kingdom got the aid. He didn't like it or understand it. And now he'd probably die for it.

Feeling Yoongi move around him, tying him tight and moving in close, he gulped hard as he waited for whatever was going to come. He felt wet build around his eyes and he shivered as all of his emotions hit him at once. "It's not fair that you left me..."