"I don't know. He might kill me or -- or Cheon will be there. What if he's there? He'll hurt me. He'll make me go home with him." And that just freaked him out. He wanted to be braver but the idea of going back to Cheon, especially now he'd disobeyed, it was terrifying. Cheon knew how to punish him and make it hurt, he'd done all manner of things to make sure he suffered, pain and humiliation were his tools.

"If I went to see Hobi-hyung, you could protect me, right? I-- I can't see him again."

Not yet. He wasn't ready. He was trying to be but he was too freaked out. He didn't want to be a burden but he was a coward when it came to Cheon. "I want to help, I really do."